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patu; 1: a Maori club; 2: to strike, or kill; 3: by extension, anything broken, maimed or otherwise f***ed!
As in, "I'd rather have nothing than look at that
patu thing" she said as I first rolled - then unrolled and obediently folded - the old sheet serving in our bedroom for a curtain (because she'd thrown the old curtains out).
And I laughed. And then laughed again as it struck me that right there was the root of so many arguments in our house: I'd rather have
anything than nothing. But not her. If it's not a beautiful thing then it's not to be tolerated - she cannot countenance patu things.
We agree a lot on our love of lovely things, but here we part ways, and, here I'm forced to admit that I love a lot of unlovely things too, and especially those that
serve me well. In fact, the better they serve me the more I love them. And, the more they give to serve (old hammers, old trucks, old dogs, old ropes, old whiskey, old jeans, old jokes), the more I love 'em for it too.
What's going on here? Am I just making usefulness (givingness?) a category of beautiful and then equating the resulting *regard/appreciation* with *love*. Or does love actually just mean what it means; a setting of the heart upon resulting in actions consistent with affection. Doesn't the Bible speak to us kinda plainly concerning love? Assuming that the love of God is somehow still analogous enough to our experience that we can share a conversation with Him about it?
Then I
love that old sheet; I hang it up and my bedroom becomes a sanctum, closed to prying eyes and early sunbeams. And when we finally get some new curtains she'll want to chuck the old sheet away and she'll give it to me for rags....
... And when she's not looking... I'll fold it up lovingly and put it safely at the back of the linen cupboard.